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Headspace
03:07
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At least I will see all the stress that I'll save,
not the one in a mess digging my early grave.
So I'll just second guess,
try not regret what the same old voice tells me in my head.
So instead I'll get it off my chest.
Here's to hoping it's all for the last time.
I want to tell myself that I'll move on and I'll carry on without you.
I start to think why I wasted time,
Tried to get in your head when I should've been looking after mine.
So I'll carry on without you.
When I'd fall asleep thinking about you,
And all the times I'd ever share my deepest thoughts when I thought you cared.
What is it I had to prove?
I don't need your false concern or your apathy to know that your future was never with me.
Your future was never with me.
Stuck in a rut, invested in feelings,
That keep me awake.
And I know that I'll be fine,
Need a little space and time to see there's so much more to life but for now I'm giving in.
I guess it's safe to say I've been replaced,
I did everything I could for you but couldn't fill that space.
In light of all this pain I'll move on in a different vein,
another leaf I've turned, a lesson learned,
Here's to hoping it’s all for the last time.
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2. |
Pensive
03:36
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Until one door closes, another won't open.
It's hard to believe when disheartened and broken.
Too much of our lives contemplating what might make a difference.
I rewrite the script almost every day,
The same story's told with no sign of change.
When times slipping through your fingers,
The cloud of doubt begins to linger
On all the things I said I should've done
By the time I'm turning twenty one.
Do you think about all the time you spend wishing this could end?
Longing for a reason to leave this all behind,
But further down the line and I'm stuck in this skin of mine living some other life,
Waiting around hoping for something more.
Still I'm digging myself a hole,
The further away I go, the more I forget what I'm doing this for.
Until one door closes, another won't open.
It's hard to believe when disheartened and broken.
I spill my guts into it,
Wait around and see what sticks.
I had my head up in the clouds,
Never came down to deal with this reality that people talk about.
As if at my age they had life figured out.
Too much of our lives contemplating what might make a difference. 'cause I curse myself almost every day,
Thinking how I nearly walked away.
Do you think about all the time you spend wishing this could end?
Longing for a reason to leave this all behind,
But further down the line and I'm stuck in this skin of mine living some other life,
Waiting around hoping for something more.
Still I'm digging myself a hole,
The further away I go, the more I forget what I'm doing this for.
I wanted you to know, I’ll have something to show.
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3. |
Distrait
03:10
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Why do I struggle to find the words that will express my true and honest feelings?
The ones that hold some meaning,
Yet I digress into shit without much substance,
Self-deprecation in abundance.
Loosened the screws from the overthinking,
Nothing to lose but the weight I'm bearing.
Lost in a world of my own, I don't know where I'm going.
Left feeling empty and cold but yet I'm still here breathing.
Trying to find a way for me to open up and let you see through my distant eyes,
All the things that I hide.
I let my woes pent up inside,
No means to vent I realized,
To everyone and to myself,
I'm acting like somebody else.
And when it rains, it pours,
I should've said before.
I let this fester, tried to pretend that this was never on my mind.
Look into my eyes,
Show me what I hide.
When I can't let my feelings be known,
I let this sadness swallow me whole.
Watch the light fight the gloom,
Or the cold halt the bloom on the dreams that I thought would help me grow.
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4. |
Sonder
03:05
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Look into the mirror,
Mouth the words 'you'll be alright',
Hope that time will make things clearer,
But when you've said it for the hundredth time,
I'm sick of saying that I'll be alright.
Afraid to break the mould that you have built yourself around,
That's all you've ever known.
The one that's shaped the man you are today,
The one that's left you feeling so alone.
Lying awake again,
Overcome by a deep sense of sonder.
I'm not the only one who ponders if the life I've chosen was the one cut out for me,
Nothing's pre-determined, this is who I want to be.
So I want you to know,
That I'll have something to show.
Afraid to break the mould that you have built yourself around,
That's all you've ever known.
The one that's shaped the man you are today,
The one that's left you feeling so alone.
Wake up before you realise there's nothing for you to live for.
Look into the mirror,
Mouth the words 'you'll be alright',
Hoped that time would make things clearer,
But when it's 6 months down the line,
And I'm sick of saying that I'll be alright.
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Broken Reverie
04:19
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You tore me apart and ripped at every seam,
Have a taste of your own medicine then tell me how you’ve been.
A bitter pill to swallow, It builds up to break you down,
Till your misery is crippling and drags you to the ground.
It was exciting and new, completely out of the blue,
Not long before I was a stranger to you.
I'll let you in my head so you can recite,
What I never said when I had to bite,
The tip of my tongue, take a deep breath,
Had to grit my teeth till my mouth bled.
I had to tread ever so light around the corners of your mind.
I'm another example of what you couldn't handle.
The impression I convinced myself I had of you and I,
As clear as day, as right as rain,
But I was caught in my illusion,
I'm riddled with delusion.
So deceitful on my eyes,
A mirage playing with my mind.
Everything I said, everything I did,
Nothing seemed to work, nothing did the trick,
‘cause you got everything that you needed,
Now your left feeling guilty.
But I'm getting used to this lack of honesty,
Brings a flush of red only I can see.
You left me stranded and neglected with nothing more than I expected.
I should be getting used to this by now,
Still hurts to admit but I'll get over it somehow.
I should be getting used to this by now,
Still hurts to admit but I'm not over it right now.
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